Them's the brakes..

I am just a big bundle of giddy school girl tonight!

Maybe it's because of The Vampire Diaries addiction that I've recently aquired, or the fact the it's Supernatural night!

Maybe it's both, and the fact that there is a very cute irish man on tonights SPN epi!

Something about him screamed Heath Ledger..! Not just the fact that he had an accent, but he kinda looked like him too..only a tad though.

I love the writers! I'm pretty sure that Supernatural has the best writers on the planet, who come up with the best one liners on television!

"Benjaman Button me back into burger shape.."

"I do believe that he-witch gave you the clap.."

"For a witch your so nice it's creepy.."

What? They let house keeping into their room? Well thats a first!

I'm sad that Smallville is no longer our Thursday night prequel to Supernatural, but I'm more than happy with it's replacement! I've only seen two-ish episodes of it but I am so in love with it! At first I thought it was gonna be lame, but it's pretty good. I am hooked.

Yay for new addictions!

It's based on a book series by L.J Smith. They're bound to be better than Twilight. The tv show is already better than the movie! I want to read them, but sadly all the libraries have them checked out and the waiting list is probaby 8 miles long. Stupid prepubesent girls!!

My favorite line from tonght?

"Where's your bathroom I have to pee. Why do I have to pee? I thought I was dead!"

I'm a Damon girl myself, Stefan is pretty and all but he's a softy. Yes, "Good" vampires are great, but why fight who you are? I mean if you can feed on human blood with out killing the victim, why wouldn't you??

K, I'm outie.

[[Toodles]]

Just fade away..

Oh goodeness! T-minus two hours and counting!

Untill what??

The Curious Case of Dean Winchester of course..!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HVPwYA8ZRKA

Oh! Sammy is adorable!

Oh gosh! I'm excited!

The stars lean down to kiss you, and I'll lie awake and miss you..

My cat, Jack, is the animal equivalent of Misha/Cas. It's creepy, because he just sits there staring at you, and when you look away you realize he's still staring right into your soul. Eerie. *shudder*

I was in bed this morning and I looked over at him and he was looking at me. Then I looked away, and out of the corner of my eye I saw he was still just staring at me! And if I make noise to scare him away he doesn't even flinch. That cat. Oi.

He has these HUGE yellow eyes and they're kind of wild looking. Ack! he's doing it again!
He even cocks his head to the side like Cas!!

I still can't sleep.

I wrote these, what else can I say.

Anonymity Hurts.
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I don't know exactly what love is yet, but this feels like it might be it.
Do you know that you inspire me, I write about you constantly.
But I can never show it to you the way I want to.
Because of you I can't be completely honest.
Because of you I write poems that depress me, I listen to music that depresses me, I even read books that depress me.
It's not your fault.
It's not their fault.
The fault is all my own.
The poems depress me, because I write them about you.
The books and music depress me, because they're things that I associate with you.
It's my fault.
It's not your fault I want things I can't have.
Can never have.
Oh listen to me whine.
I should just shut my mouth, and put down my pen.
But theses things constantly run around my head, and it feels like a balloon with to much air.
Ok, bad analogy.
But this is the only way I can get this out, anonymously.
I don't want to be anonymous.
Anonymity hurts.
Maybe someday I'll be able to tell you, but for right now I have to sit in painful silence, waiting, waiting.
And even when the time is right, you probably won't love me.

And you still won't notice.
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I can't even believe how much I love you.
And you don't even notice.
Have you seen the way I look at you?
I can't believe you haven't taken notice of me, of how I stare, and laugh, how I smile a lot when you talk to me.
How my cheeks flare red and I get self-conscience when you're next to me.
I want to linger there in your arms when you hug me.
And when you catch me off guard, saying you love me, only you mean it like this.
But when I say it I mean it like that.
I mean I love you with everything I've got in me.
And it hurts because you still haven't noticed.
Noticed that every second with you is killing me because we're on different levels.
You're here, and I'm there, and I just want to close the distance between us until there is no distance between at all.
So much so that I'm sitting here scribbling this, listening to this song that makes me think about you, and fighting tears.
But you still haven't noticed.

See I can be serious, and thoughtful.

Leave my door open just, cause I feel like such an insomniac..

I'm such the insomniac! I can't sleep! So naturally the next thing to do is sit on my couch, listening to a mixture of Rent, Wicked and Once, whilst compiling a list of my girl crushes, instead of doing the math and other school I have been putting off! Yeah I need to prioritize better. You'd rather I do this first, right?

K. Merchant's List of Girl Crushes..

1.) P!nk:






She takes number because she is my hero. Her music is beyond fantastic, she's gorgeous, and I love her style! I wish that I could pull of her hair in the second picture! That's why she's the only one that gets three pictures!

2.) Idina Menzel:


I'm more jealous of Taye Diggs being married to Idina, than I am of Idina being married to Taye Diggs..

3.) Sophia Bush:


I love love love this picture! She is so hot! She is Melanie in one of my fics, and I used this picture when I posted to Supernatural.tv! LOVE HER!

4.) Pauley Perrette :


Abby! I love her! She is amazing!

5.) Rachel McAdams:


She is goregeous. I loved her in Time Travelers Wife! She is such a phenomenal actress!

6.) Katie Cassidy:


She is kick awesome! She is bamf, and she was amazing as Ruby!

7.) Britney Spears:


I was her biggest fan when I was a kid! I have always loved her!

8.) Taylor Swift:


I don't care what people say, I think she is friggin' gorgeous! I love her music! I can relate to Hey, Stephen!

9.) Selena Gomez:


That really isn't the best picture of her..But I still love her! I love the way she dresses, and she so down to earth! And I love Wizards of Waverly Place..yeah I watch Disney Channel. Got a problem? Didn't think so.

10.) Avril Lavigne:


I hate how much she's changed.

11.) Cher:




She is phenomenal! She looks very good for her age! She's a fantastic singer! I love her!!!

12.) Celine Dion:


Talk about phenomenal singer! She is the most amazing person ever!

13.) Lady Gaga:




Lady Gaga. Wow she just blows my mind. I-I..there are no words for her awesomeness.
She gets two cause she's just so awesome.


Yeah so that's all for tonight, I really should go tackle that pesky math.

Coming soon, K.Merchant's List of Boy Toys..

[[Toodles]]

Let me first start by saying..

I'm wearing nothing but a towel at the moment.

Why you ask, well because I just got home from pulling an all-nighter at a church lock-in.

That still doesn't answer your question, well you didn't really let me finish.
Alright so I pulled an all-nighter at a lock-in, where we played two, count them two, 30 min rounds of underground church.

What is underground church? Well pretty much you get your youth group together, and designate Roman Soldiers, and Persecuted Christians, turn off all the lights in your church, and pretty much play the greatest game of hide-and-seek-tag-in-the-dark you have ever played in your life.

So an all-nighter of running around a pitch black church gets you all hot, sweaty and smelly.

On top of that we went down the Boys Ranch, at 2am, and played an exceptionally long game of volley ball, (which I didn't really participate in), and a equally long game of wiffle ball baseball, in which I did participate.

After the Boys Ranch, we went back to our church where my friends and I got extremely hyper, and found a wheel chair. So with said wheel chair we ran, and rode, around our youth building all. Night. Long.

So here we are at 8am, being picked up by our parents. By this point everyone is exhausted and ready to waste a perfectly good Saturday in bed sleeping. I am different though. I felt to gross to just go to sleep, so I took a 30 min shower, and almost feel asleep under the warm spray that soon turned cold indicating that I needed to exit said cold shower. And so I did, then I proceed to wrap myself in a towel, sit down, and blog about my night. I am wide awake guys.

I woke up Friday at 11:30 am, it is now Saturday 9:26 am, I haven't slept a wink.

Shiza.

Oh and P.S



This is my costume, I am Castiel!

I found it!!

So a couple of weeks ago I decided that I was going to be Castiel for Halloween, which proved to be a tad bit difficult. See apparently it's hard to find a cheap trench coat. But today I found it! A near perfect match! The first place we went! So I will put pictures up of me in my costume! Hopefully I do him justice!! Pictures to come next week!

Suck!

See that link? If you're a supernatural fan, and you love fic, click it! It's my profile!



Hmm I really need to post something to get my creative juice flowing, because I am absolutely stumped beyond all belief, meaning to write my fic!

OK! Let's get started!
OmGee!

My cat is staring into my soul..!
He won't stop looking at me with those yellow, unnerving eyes! Creepy, and down right eerie.

Cats are scary! They never blink, and you never know what they're thinking! When they're rubbing on you leg they could be thinking about your ultimate demise! Like scratching your brains out, or pooping in your milk! Hey don't laugh cat poop is toxic! I had a friend once that ate cat poo on a dare, and he fell to the ground writhing and wriggling and puking so hard his intestines came out his nose, and then suddenly he stopped, stone still, we waited on bated breath, then POOF he disappeared never to be seen again, until the following weekend.

Ok that last paragraph was a complete fallacy.

What to write about next! I have no idea, so I'll let these picture distract you.





*baby voice*Where's you tummy, Taylor?


Ooo! I have the perfect topic!

How much I hate Kristen Stewart!
I really used to love her! But something happened to her when she did Twilight!
She was awesome! She was my hero! And now she's..she's..ick! It's like the second that she starting filming Twilight she forgot how to act!

Dear Kristen Stewart,
You used to be awesome,and now you kinda suck.
A used to be fan.
=*(

Oh poor thing her middle name is Jaymes.

Well anyways!

Hmmm what now!


Yeah I got nothing. Sorry for the crappy post.

I'm shouting in my sleep, I need a muzzle..

I promised a friend, Aleah, that I would post a rant. What's a rant you asked, well it's random, and has nothing to do with anything. I pretty much just think of something random and start talking about it. And usually it turns out to be stupid but somehow makes people laugh...here goes.

So I was at Panda Express the other day, and I had been standing in line for quite some time. I started to get biffed, “I get so cranky when my blood sugar drops.” I told the guy in front of me. Which is true, I was hungry one night but I didn’t have any money to order take-out, I got very angry. I went on a rampage, shaved my head, and smashed up some dudes truck with Mary Poppins’ umbrella. .Oh right that was Britney...I got so fed up that I marched right up to the front of the line to demand an answer as to why I was not getting the attention I so desperately needed from my parents, and what was causing the line to get backed up to their homeland, when I saw this guy fondling his chow mien at a near by table. My curiosity and my extremely short attention span got the best of me. “Sir, what, in the name of deep fried banana squash, are you doing?” He told me that he was on a date and to leave him and his mistress alone. “You, my friend are weird; I am very interested in what you might have to say.” He looked at me, and patted the chair next to him, and his. .err. .um noddle-y mistress. “I’m Martin Andrew Jonathan Sherbotskee, or you could just call me Budd.” Budd seemed like a very nice person. I asked him why he was molesting his chow mien. “Why do you molest little helpless squirrels on the side walk?” “I don’t..” “BECAUSE YOU LOVE THEM!” He whisper shouted. I guess he wanted to come across as angry, but not scary, he didn’t want to scare his noodles. “How old is she?” I asked, because obviously they couldn’t have been too old seeing as they weren’t moldy yet. “5.” and that’s the story of how I met Budd the ragamuffin with authority problems, and a fondness for chow mien that bordering on illegal.

Hows that??
If it was disappointing I promise a better one is on the way..!