Drenched in vanilla twilight, I'll sit on the front porch all night..

"..waist deep in thought because when I think of you I don't feel so alone."


I am a pathetic, simpering wad of self pity, and disgusting lovey feelings, all for a boy who will never know that I ever loved him.


I'm such a loser, sitting here on the couch at almost two in the morning, listening to Vanilla Twilight, and Saltwater Room over and over again, because the lyrics are exactly what I feel.


I am so lame. So so lame.
And boys suck.


So again in a weak attempt to distract myself I am going to try to blog to forget, until I fall asleep, and wake up tomorrow and this heartwrenching cycle starts again.


Did I mention I get sort of poetic and dramatic when I'm somber?


Anyway, I'm going to ramble about random crap until I feel better.
Isn't that what I always do..?


How about capslock and all it cracktasticly awesome branch comms!


I've known about capslock for a while, but I've never had the courage to look around it!
So I tried and then came to the sad realization that it is exclusive..


So I joined MISHALAND, and I found my home!


That is the most awesome-est comm ever!


But I'm easing myself into it, because I'm afraid to slip up and get banned...that would be sad..


So I'm just watching and learning!


And I've learned that if I had even Dr.Pepper, and the hour was late enough, I could write some epic crack fic..!
God knows I have a dirty mind!


Seriously though with the weird crap I post here, and the weirder crap I used to post on my Myspace. I could be legendary..Wow apparently in addtion to poetic and dramatic I get cocky..


Ugh! My playlist is on shuffle, and it keeps playing all the sad songs! WTF, guys?!


Ahem, anyway..to say now..?


How about I'm all out, and I'm going to sleep now..?

You sound like thunder though you've barely spoken..(spolier alert for 5x1 'Sympathy for the Devil')

"Oh it looks like rain tonight and thank God cause a clear sky just wouldn't feel right.."

It's kinda funny when you go to tag Dean Winchester, and you type the 'D' and drag queens comes up..

Mmm! The smell of rain is in the air, and with it a wave of inspiration, and motivation to blog..!

Hmmm..It's been a while my little chickadees, let's catch up shall we? Alright then, Well as of August 18, I'm officially 17! Now if only I could get my licence or a state issued i.d. I won't have to sneak in the R rated movies any more..

Ahem..anywho I watched the The premiere of my beloved Supernatural three days late! It was great, and how!! For the information of my Supernatural obsessed, and/or seas readers, (not that I think I'm so great that I've got readers all over the planet but you know just in case I do) the CW puts the episodes up on the website for our viewing pleasure, I think, the Sunday after it airs.

I literally almost had a heart attack when Chuck announced that our dear sweet Cas, "Exploded like a water balloon of chunky soup.." Yeah I'm a little attached to Misha, and his corresponding role as our Thursday night angel.

But when he showed up and kicked some serious angel butt I almost had another one, because I was so happy to see his face! But that sneaky little angel just disappearing after his Lazarus stunt was just plain rude, Kripke knows just how to pull us to the edge of or couches (or desk chair in my case), and promptly drop us on our faces..

I'm guessing Sara Gamble wrote this epi, because Sammy lungs were mercilessly stolen for the greater good of the world. It's her unofficial trade mark. You'll notice in most of the episodes when Sam is suffocated in some way, shape or form, she's usually behind it. It's OK Ms. Gamble we like it to..Kinky.

I'm sure I'm not the only one that stopped breathing and clamped a white knuckled hand over their gaping mouth when Bobby stabbed himself. I hated Kripke at that moment..

Oh and the girl that played Meg! Hooray casting directors! Love her! Don't get me wrong I liked Nikki Acox, but this girl was great..And the way she talked was perfect. To bad Meg left her on the floor of the boys motel room..

How could I forget! The girl writing wincest!
"Could you please stop touching me..?"
She was just awesome! I love that Kripke has sort of been catering to us fan girls!
it feels great to be appreciated sometimes..
At times I wonder what Jared, and Jensen think about our fandom..hmmm. If I were them I wouldn't touch it with a ten foot pole..God help them if they ever stumble upon CAPSLOCK *evil grin* What a lovely thing we have created.